MEMOIR

It has happened and has been done.Its only gonna be a fadded memory.

I hv done something that I would not have done a year ago.It may come to some of my frens surprice or it may not.For me,it was the hardest thing that I did.It was for the best of me,for once I just wanted something gud n healthy for myself n think for myself n not someone else.Many might its stupid or a very drastic action to tk.Remember the blog that I wrote so angrily to him tat I said I didn't wan anything to do wit him n bla bla bla~yea,I won't tk bck my words.The reason I'm blogging abt it nw is bcuz I don't wan anymore judgement towards me or any gossips bout it.
Y I did it is bcuz anymore communication wit him would make me volnurable.I can juz fall bck in to the same path and go bck to him whenever he wants me to.I am that weak,n I hv done this action bcuz its to ensure tat I forget bout him n nvr fall bck into my past actions.
I don't want to lose myself bcuz of him or anyone else.Do u noe how it feels to totally lose yourself?its like,u dun even noe who u r when u look into a mirror,u can't believe that u would do such things,u keep wondering y or where or what.Its hard to exlain,n I hvost myself for him,I'd die to do anything for him bt nw its different bcuz I noe our differences.I admit,I still hv feelings for him bt one day,that feeling will wash away.I find it hard not to hv any news or msg or calls from him but I juz hv to go thriugh the time healing thing n I will juz be fine.Don't u see,I need to be a stranger towards a guy I once loved madly about bcuz Its my only way to forget bout him.
Maybe in another few years n if we ever meet again den we can be frens again.If "u" are reading this,I juz wanna say I'm sorry for doing this,I'm sorry for wad I did in the past ,I'm sorry for being so irratating to u.Personally for me,I think u hv done a great job in ur life,I juz hope the best to u n I hope u find the best gal for u:)
I also want to tell all my frens that u r all the bst for being there n slapping me up to my sensese :)muax
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