My sis juz woke me from my finally beauty sleep cuz she lst her phone n etc at clb....haiz.....now i cant sleep....i need something to make me slp but i'm out of it...>.<>
I feel my own life now is without any aim or goal....i juz work to pass my time even my night job i work to pass time....i go club , find anyone i could juz so i can dun be alone.....i wan something in my life...i'm so use with tat B****** in my life until now i dunno how to resume my previous life....i can tell ppl i'm fine,i'm ok,i'm bz,but if say happy,its different bcuz i aint happy like last time....
I dunno wad i wan in my life anymore,i need n want something bck in my life but its impossible....but i wan something tat can heal me....i dont want to be how i am now...i feel so san fu~~~~i can cry everynight when i'm alone for no reason....bcuz something in my heart is making feelinf so unwell...i will alsways think stupid thind like whether he has found someone new or better than me or is he feeling wad i;m feeling or is he really over me...Stupid things that doesnt matter anymore...i want to let go but yet i still hold on a lil bit of hope...for wat?!His not mine to care or wadever lar....somebody save me from my misery...i'm begging...i cannot stand any futher....i really will end up going nutz....i'm already losing it....i hv to do something whenever i'm alone...i smoke to not think,go club to not think,sell drinks to not think,do everyhting to avoid thinking everything~
I wish i hv someone or something to cure me or end my misery...i feel so pathethic hagging on hope for something so impossible....
