Probably The Only Memory Left

This month is probably my worst nitemare n my worst month of my life.Not only i lost my grandmother,i dont even know how to console my mother n my family has shrunk to 3 person n we're not connecting well.Besides that, my fren is hunting me down for money cuz she thinks i'm gonna run away or something n willinglessly o beleive me.I dont care a dam bout that but to top the worst of the worst is my heart got shattered again.

I think i'm such a failure when it comes to relationship.Ntg i do can work things out in a relationship.But that is not important bcuz i dun mind.Bt last nite was probably the only sweetest memory but yet bitter n painfull of my life.He was there 4 me during my worst of falling,I didnt tell him everything bcuz i dont wanna burden his heart with my tears,all i could hope for is him to be happy."Friens" was the only thing that could be between us.

It was my fault that i can so easily let my heart to fall for him.But i nvr regretted althougth it feels like i've been stab a knife through my heart.At least there's always a lil part of him in me.I accept his apology n trust him.Y friends,i dont know but i dont want to know either.

Alcohol n ciggrattes is my life n my cure to fade the scar away.I cannot hope for anyhting more den friends.i juz want this pain to fade away.i cannot tk another heart ache abymore,i hv fallen so painfull n i hate the feeling n hate the pain in my heart.I only wish to drink everyday to make it go away.

I dont want him to know nor see me that way.i only want him to see the best of me n not the weakest part of me.

But i nvr regretted in anyway.

I wan To hv sometHing....End my miserY!

My sis juz woke me from my finally beauty sleep cuz she lst her phone n etc at clb....haiz.....now i cant sleep....i need something to make me slp but i'm out of it...>.<>
I feel my own life now is without any aim or goal....i juz work to pass my time even my night job i work to pass time....i go club , find anyone i could juz so i can dun be alone.....i wan something in my life...i'm so use with tat B****** in my life until now i dunno how to resume my previous life....i can tell ppl i'm fine,i'm ok,i'm bz,but if say happy,its different bcuz i aint happy like last time....
I dunno wad i wan in my life anymore,i need n want something bck in my life but its impossible....but i wan something tat can heal me....i dont want to be how i am now...i feel so san fu~~~~i can cry everynight when i'm alone for no reason....bcuz something in my heart is making feelinf so unwell...i will alsways think stupid thind like whether he has found someone new or better than me or is he feeling wad i;m feeling or is he really over me...Stupid things that doesnt matter anymore...i want to let go but yet i still hold on a lil bit of hope...for wat?!His not mine to care or wadever lar....somebody save me from my misery...i'm begging...i cannot stand any futher....i really will end up going nutz....i'm already losing it....i hv to do something whenever i'm alone...i smoke to not think,go club to not think,sell drinks to not think,do everyhting to avoid thinking everything~
I wish i hv someone or something to cure me or end my misery...i feel so pathethic hagging on hope for something so impossible....

Nervous Nervous >.<

My First consult of the day,with quoting price.So nervous >.< lol
I totally suck owh...haiz...but i wanna success!!!!
My lil darling SWIFT!!!Wait for me!!

MY Dream-Be one of the most rich n independent 18 years old GAl!!mwuahahahhah
IGNOR-GUYS!!!!NO BF!!!!
AIM-Min 5 thousand a month!!!

I WILL SHOW U N THE WORLD!

Good Girls Go Bad lyrics

I make them good girls go
I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go
I make them good girls go
Good girls go bad
Good girls go bad

I know your type
(Your type)
You're daddy's little girl
Just take a bite
(One bite)
Let me shake up your world
'Cause just one night couldn't be so wrong
I'm gonna make you lose control

She was so shy
Till I drove her wild

I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go bad
You were hanging in the corner
With your five best friends
You heard that I was trouble
But you couldn't resist
I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go
Good girls go bad

I know your type
(Your type)
Boy, you're dangerous
Yeah, you're that guy
(That guy)
I'd be stupid to trust
But just one night couldn't be so wrong
You make me wanna lose control

She was so shy
Till I drove her wild

I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go bad
I was hanging in the corner
With my five best friends
I heard that you were trouble
But I couldn't resist
I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go
Good girls go bad
Bad bad bad
Good girls go bad
Bad bad bad
Good girls go bad

Oh, she got away with the boys in the place
Treat 'em like they don't stand a chance
And he got away with the girls in the back
Acting like they're too hot to dance
Yeah, she got away with the boys in the place
Treat 'em like they don't stand a chance
And he got away with the girls in the back
Acting like they're too hot to dance

I make them good girls go bad
(They don't stand a chance)
I make them good girls go
The good girls go bad, yeah
Good girls go bad
I was hanging in the corner
With my five best friends
I thought that you were trouble
But I couldn't resist
I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go bad
I make them good girls go
Good girls go bad
Bad bad bad
Good girls go bad
Bad bad bad
Good girls go bad

Enjoy the song babes^^ This song expresses me today^^
Muaks

I Wanna Kick Start!!!!

Takin' Back My Love lyrics
Songwriters: Iglesias, Enrique; Khayat, Nadir; Storm, Frankie;

Go ahead just leave, can't hold you, you're free
You take all these things, if they mean so much to you
I gave you your dreams, 'cause you meant the world
So did I deserve to be left here hurt?

You think I don't know you're out of control
I ended up finding all of this from my boys
Girl, you're stone cold, you say it ain't so
You already know I'm not attached to material

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
My love

Yeah, what did I do but give love to you?
I'm just confused as I stand here and look at you
From head to feet, all that's not me
Go 'head, keep the keys, that's not what I need from you

You think that you know
(I do)
You've made yourself cold
(Oh yeah)
How could you believe them over me, I'm your girl

You're out of control
(So what?)
How could you let go?
(Oh yeah)
Don't you know I'm not attached to material?

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

So all this love I give you, take it away
(Uh, uh huh)
You think material's the reason I came
(Uh, uh huh)

If I had nothing would you want me to stay
(Uh, uh huh)
You keep your money, take it all away

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love

Ooh, my love
(I'm taking back my love)
Ooh, my love

This song expresses my every ending of my relationship.
My aim! Is my baby dearest lil Suzuki Swift!^^
Swift swift,ere i come!!^^

PS:I dun care wad 'U" or other think of wad type of girl i am,I know who i am thats enuh.I gv up!I know myself is enuh!