shisha Escapade :)

Location : Al-Safa ,nearby 1u
Activity : shisha n mamak food <3
Guest : M3 & Evi3 <3

Last nite I went for shisha wit my dear fren evie :)it was my first time shisha ,hahha~i say,its quite nice n fun,n its cheap >.<
"Mamak food n drinks + shisha + cooling place + nt anywhere near puchong(boring edi puchong) = new place to hang out^^ "
It certainly is different than smoking,I mean by taste~plus u dun end up like smoke smell at the end of the day,u'll smell sweetttt^^
Its fun to hv went wit my fren,its like another way to relax n release stress>.<
I can say I hv a new activity nw!!hahha,its not all bout clubbing n yam cha anymore,its an extra activity called shisha!XD
All thx to my dear fren evie who suggested for shisha nite,n also my sister who intro the place n leon(sis bf) for guiding me the way n a flavour to shisha:)
Happy<3

MEMOIR

It has happened and has been done.Its only gonna be a fadded memory.

I hv done something that I would not have done a year ago.It may come to some of my frens surprice or it may not.For me,it was the hardest thing that I did.It was for the best of me,for once I just wanted something gud n healthy for myself n think for myself n not someone else.Many might its stupid or a very drastic action to tk.Remember the blog that I wrote so angrily to him tat I said I didn't wan anything to do wit him n bla bla bla~yea,I won't tk bck my words.The reason I'm blogging abt it nw is bcuz I don't wan anymore judgement towards me or any gossips bout it.
Y I did it is bcuz anymore communication wit him would make me volnurable.I can juz fall bck in to the same path and go bck to him whenever he wants me to.I am that weak,n I hv done this action bcuz its to ensure tat I forget bout him n nvr fall bck into my past actions.
I don't want to lose myself bcuz of him or anyone else.Do u noe how it feels to totally lose yourself?its like,u dun even noe who u r when u look into a mirror,u can't believe that u would do such things,u keep wondering y or where or what.Its hard to exlain,n I hvost myself for him,I'd die to do anything for him bt nw its different bcuz I noe our differences.I admit,I still hv feelings for him bt one day,that feeling will wash away.I find it hard not to hv any news or msg or calls from him but I juz hv to go thriugh the time healing thing n I will juz be fine.Don't u see,I need to be a stranger towards a guy I once loved madly about bcuz Its my only way to forget bout him.
Maybe in another few years n if we ever meet again den we can be frens again.If "u" are reading this,I juz wanna say I'm sorry for doing this,I'm sorry for wad I did in the past ,I'm sorry for being so irratating to u.Personally for me,I think u hv done a great job in ur life,I juz hope the best to u n I hope u find the best gal for u:)
I also want to tell all my frens that u r all the bst for being there n slapping me up to my sensese :)muax
<3

Future

I hv thought out for few days abt hw n wat I'm gonna do for my future career~First thing is I'm gonna hand in my resume to M.A.S cuz I plan to join the cabin crew as a flight attendant.while waiting for their reply,I'm gonna stick wit parttime jobs den after my trip bck from thailand on january 2011,if I dun get a reply den I might go to plan B which is join bck london weight management.My next goal is to get a condo bck 1st.Within 2years,I wanna build my capital for my shop n when I'm 21,I'm gonna open my shop.Its gonna be a very rough ride but I muz muz muz make it bcuz its wad I wanna archive in my life!R ya all wit me??^^
I pray tat GOD will help me in a lil miracle along the way^^
N wit all my dear close frens,I'm sure I'll survive it.

Its My Life,FUCK OFF!

This is a shout out n a special dedication to an asshole n a jerk of a lifetime tat I met n loved n gone nutz n cried over him for a year. From this day onwards,I'm telling "u",I DO NOT WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH U anymore.I don't care u smoke or hwever ur bussiness is or wadever ur great n bz life is,o do not want to hv to do a lil bit of it n I do not ever wan to hear from u ever again.Dun msg me,dun call me,dun bbm/wat's app me,dun fucking ask sex from me,dun ever let me see u again!I hv cut out all connections to u as I really really wan u to fuck off!I hate u!U're the worst guy I ecer met,I dunno y I love u,I dunno y I say u're gud when u're an asshole.GO AWAY,I wan my life to be free of u 4ever,dun think bout me,u dun hv the rights to think or even miss our past ir anything.u do not deserve me.u're board of me,well so am I of u!U can hate me or wadever,I dun fucking care.if u see me,dun say hi,walk away bcuz I won't even say hi n I'll pretend to not noe u!This is hw much u hurt me until I juz need u to step out of my life.I dun care if u think its stupid or wadever,its my way to tell u FUCK OFF!

It doesnt matter.

I finally get to see my friends wedding photo.she's so pretty.I've gotta admit,I do hv a bit of envy~haha~they look so happy n kindda perfect for each other ><
Nwayz,today working full shift,like omg...so boring but den my supervisor nt here so I'm still a free gal:)
Halloween is coming soon means its gonna be PARTY!!!heeheh~
Happy happy^^

decision decisions

i haven blog in a long long time....so many stories...
but i hv been living up n happy this time :)
its juz a tiny bit of problem...he said he wants to make it right...which means he wants another chance.not immedieatly bcuz he doesnt hv time for relationship n i dun wanna be in one nw...but in the meanwhile,he tries to fix it den when its right,he only will propose to be together....he hasnt been trying very hard to do anything lately , i juz dun feel his willingness in it...aiks...
i wont put much hope in it as i am afariad it will only end up as a big disappoinent...
so all i do now is try to think of a new job and den earn 5k before january 2011.shit!