The truth always hurts bcuz its reality

It nvr occur to me of how much I did love him.Not even when I was with him,not even when I was close to him or even when we made out or love.But I doubt he ever has this strong feeling as I hv for me.I can nvr understand him,I nvr can noe y,I nvr can noe his feeling for me.I felt complete when we used to be together but nw,even after 2 relatuonships,I still don't feel complete,like there is something left out.I don't think he ever was serious bout me.Even though it was crap of him the way he treated me like I was juz a free prostitute ,but we did hv a very gud time too.I always miss the way he kissed my forhead once n gently said I love u to my ears.He will nvr remember it bcuz he nvr do.Yes,after so long we broke up,I'm still in love with a crap n jack ass bastard.I wonder y.heh...Yesh,his name is geoffrey,but we would nvr be 2gether bcuz he n me,the spark is too much.He doesn't remember anything anymore.I hate him yet I do love him very much n deeply in my heart.He will nvr understand wad I would feel bcuz he has no clue to how much I went through but I doubt he had interest in it.I'm juz an idiot still pacing through a past memory.Reality hurts!